Comfort in the Healing Process.

Yesterday January 21, was a tough day emotionally. I seemed to have more moments of sadness. More tears falling in disappointment. I felt very overwhelmed with my emotions. Yet in the same day I was comforted the most since all this has happened.

Unknowingly an arrangement of flowers arrived and my husband notified me of their presence when he arrived home from work. I looked at the card and just could not contain the tears as they fell from my eyes. Some friends of ours had experienced a similar miscarriage 4 months before us. They were the thoughtful and concerned givers. My heart was so touched by their compassion that I just felt overwhelmed with love and concern.

Also in the same day some other friends who live 35-40 miles away came to town and brought over dinner, a little heartfelt and heartwarming gift and card. Not even aware of their intentions except for visiting. What a blessing it was to see the love and compassion from these dear friends.

It is hard to deal with disappointment. Even harder to feel completely and utterly alone. I am so thankful b/c I have loving christian brothers and sisters who are making my disappointment easier to handle. I am also even more thankful for my dear husband who has been so loving and understanding. He has tried to encourage me with helpful words and thoughts; thoughts that are made to make me smile.

Tonight was no different. My 5 yr old son was going potty after bible time and when everyone else was already asleep. He began having a conversation while in the bathroom. (Before he went to the potty, He overheard me sitting in a chair in his room, crying and praying to God.) He seemed to be really sharing his heart to God. I heard the last phrase or so and asked him what he was saying to God. I was so astounded about his answer. " I was praying to God to give us more babies. I want 4 more brothers and sisters." I asked him if he was sad about little Ezekiel Moses dieing. He said "Yes". I said "that is okay God will help us heal I said." I then took the time to pray with him and encourage him to Trust and believe God. I told him nothing was impossible with God.

I am so thankful to God for seeing me through this difficult time and for giving me our son Othniel. He has been a blessing and has facilitated the healing that God started even. My heart is mending b/c little Othniel has joy and hope and peace in his life. Trying to find the joy and peace in everything. Even and especially in the simple things.

There is a phrase that says, "Joy comes in the morning". I think however it can be thought of that "Joy can come in the mourning." Looking for positive uplifting things can help the mourning process be less bitter and more of a blessing.

I know that God does not promise us a life with out trials or struggles. However he does promise us that HE will not leave us during those times. He is constant and ever present even and especially when we are suffering a disappointment or loss.

I am Thankful for a God that never lets go. I am also Thankful to MY God who has plans for me that I can not see but knows that they are better plans for me than the ones I have for myself. One of my favorite verses is:

Jeremiah 29 :11 For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord; plans for welfare not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

I know it seems hard to Praise God in the midst of the storm, but the storm does pass and then comes the Rainbow. I am waiting for the Rainbow.

Don't you KNOW what causes CHILDREN.

Why have Babies?

Why have children today in this modern generation? lsn't the world overpopulated? Not really. If every man, woman and child would each stand in one square foot area, the whole world's population would fit in the city limits of Jacksonville, Florida.

But what about all the trouble babies cause? Babies need endless diapering and feeding. Babies don’t sleep all night. Babies are just a nuisance, especially after two of them. Most women have their own lives to live and babies/ children just don't fit in. Most women would rather be in the work force, meeting people, supervising men and doing their own thing.

The JOYS of having and raising babies/children has far greater rewards then the everyday tasks. There is the JOY of seeing a new born baby; the JOY of children laughing over a birthday cake, the JOY of that first experience on the bicycle, the JOY of your teenager receiving their driver's license, the JOY of your child walking down the wedding aisle, and the JOY of Grandchildren sitting upon your knee.

Who can bear children? There is only one species on the planet Earth, and her name is called woman. When God created Adam and Eve, HE said, " ... be fruitful and multiply..." Genesis 1:28. If God would have created Adam and Ernie they could not multiply. If God had created Amy and Eve they could not have multiplied. God created Adam (male) and Eve (female) right from the beginning to multiply.

If you are married, can you say that you are fruitful? It would be terrible if trees, plants and vines only bore one or two pieces of fruit and then just wanted to enjoy the garden for themselves alone. If this were to happen, the unfruitful tree or vine would be destroyed. Will God destroy you for being an unfruitful woman in HIS human vineyard, the earth? Human beings are the only creature capable of planned self sterilization. Are you fruitful or will you be destroyed by God?

Women no longer have a heart and love for children. Women don’t want to do their natural duties (having and caring for babies). Women want to become men, either equal to or superior in home, work, authority and government. Women have so educated the men of today, that they no longer desire marriage. So the few real women which would like to marry and raise a family are either told to go to work by their husband (to enjoy life more) or stay single for lack of a good husband. Many men just flat have no interest in the responsibilities and commitment of marriage because they are already enjoying all the benefits of marriage with some Jezebel without any responsibility or commitment. Once women become men, they are no longer needed in the home. Some have even made their man a house-husband so she can remain “out of the home” at work in the man’s role. These ladies really hate the inconvenience of children. They rather be a run around at the office and soon divorce and remarry. The divorce rate directly follows the rate of women in the work place with men.

Some men therefore, no longer look for a woman as a helpmate (wife), because women have become a threat to their manhood. What happens next? Men then look to other men for companionship instead of Women. And the frustrated woman rejected by men turns to women. It’s no secret that Sodomy is growing today, because people have rejected God’s design for the home and reproduction of the human race. And you guessed it - - WOMEN - - are a root cause"! It started in the Garden of Eden when Eve first lead the first man to complete ruin and lose with God.

Have you ever asked men what they want in a woman? They like quiet and submissive women. Not loud mouth rebellious women. Head strong, bossy, demanding, rude, over-bearing, MAUDE. They like feminine women (in the true sense) who dress like ladies in dresses and have not cut their glory off (long hair). Men do not want women who wear the pants, or men's suits and whacked off hair like men. Men like home-cooking not T.V. dinners or fast food all the time. Men want a woman to listen to them and not try to compete all the time in work, raising the children, and making decisions.

God says, "Children are an heritage of the Lord and the fruit of the womb is HIS reward." Psalms 127:3. This means children are a blessing or inheritance from God. Good health and finances are all blessings from God too. Yet I have never heard anyone say – “I can't bear the thought of having more good health”? Or this: “God, I definitely don't want any more money, just keep me from getting any more children." We have no right to accept some blessings and reject other blessings from God. In Proverbs 31:28, "Her children arise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her." When was the last time your children or husband called you blessed? My prayer is that one day you will be called blessed by being fruitful and having all the children God wants to Bless you with.

If you are a sinner and want to get right with God, you can ask forgiveness right where you are by praying to Jesus (YaHshau) Christ (Messiah) and asking HIM to forgive you of your sins. If you would like someone to talk with or pray with, please feel free to CALL or Email me.

I love being a FRUITFUL woman and you can. too.

Coleen Sabin

In loving memory of our dear sister Coleen Sabin a worthy example of FAITH and GRACE in our HOLY and DIVINE SAVIOUR .

Thank you Lord for this beautiful woman and her love for edification of her fellow sisters in Christ.