Psalm 39:7
"And now, Lord, what do I wait for? My hope is in You.
Psalm 39:
"Hear my prayer, O Lord, And give ear to my cry; Do not be silent at my tears; For I am a stranger with You, A sojourner, as all my fathers were.
Psalm 85 :9-13
9. Surely His salvation is near to those who fear Him, That glory may dwell in our land.
10. Mercy and truth have met together; Righteousness and peace have kissed each other.
11. Truth shall spring out of the earth, And righteousness shall look down from heaven.
12. Yes, the Lord will give what is good; And our land will yield its increase.
13. Righteousness will go before Him, And shall make His footsteps our pathway.
Ecclesiastes 3:14
I know that whatever God does, it shall be forever. Nothing can be added to it, and nothing taken from it. God does it, that men should fear before Him.
John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
John 16:33
"These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.''
Romans 8:6
For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
8:37
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
Romans 15:13
Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
James 3:18
Now the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.
Here are just a few verses that have given me comfort and peace. So often why we struggle through our trials is b/c we can not seem to find peace and contentment. What we are looking for is found right before us in God's word. I am so Thankful to have the Bible so close for encouragement and guidance.
I want to apologize for not posting earlier in the month before my miscarriage. I know that some people tend to step away when they struggle through something. I however reach out for encouragement and support. I know that what makes healing possible is seeking help, especially from those who have even possibly been on the road I am currently traveling. One thing I have learned is that experience is a teacher. So if you have encouraged me b/c of your experience or given support through thoughts or through prayer. Thank You.
Healing is not complete, until we surrender to God and trust in HIS timing for everything to be reconciled and restored to his perfect will and plan.
My Prayer:
Thank You Heavenly Father for your love, constant peace and comfort through these tough moments in life. Knowing you are not only close by, but holding us through these difficult trials. Making the healing all the more comforting b/c in you we rest in having hope and victory eternally. Thank You Jesus.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Sacrifical Love.
As wives and mothers we usually put ourselves last. Everyone's needs are met and fulfilled before we even begin to care for ourselves. I am like that and probably most of my friends who are moms and wives would agree.
Why are we like that? Is is b/c we don't think about our needs, No. Is it b/c our families are so demanding we just have to get them off our backs by caring for them first, maybe. But could it be that we are just sacrificing our own needs briefly b/c we care so deeply and so much for our families. YES.
I dearly love everyone of my children completely and totally equally. I could not tell you which child is my favorite. I could not tell you which one I would miss more if they were not in my life. I could not tell you who loves me more b/c they all show me their love in there own individual way.
I also whole heartedly love my dh so much that I do not think I could withstand any trial or struggle with out him by my side. I have grown to love him so much more today than yesterday. Our relationship has really matured in the past 6-7 yrs than any other time. I know and believe it is all b/c of God.
It is b/c of God's love for us that we can even understand what true love is. Or even how to love the ones he has given us. Jesus in our example to be the best wives, mothers, helpmets and caregivers. He has shown us through his ministry how to teach those we care about. How to show how much we care, by putting others first. He has shown us how much we can recieve by giving of our selves, our time, and our hearts.
I know that God has a purpose for all of our lives. We quiet possibly do not know what that is. That is perfectly planned that way. God wants us to be surprised by how he plans to care, teach, love us through his word and actions of love toward us. (Also through faith and trust in HIM).
Sometimes it is hard to see or understand this. I even had a struggle with that myself. Especially when we feel he has treated us unjustly. I know that it is our human nature to look at the bad and feel sorry for ourselves. I know that sometimes a pity party seems enjoyable. Not so to God. It does not matter what we think we should have. He knows us better than we know ourselves, he knows what is best and sees what path is best for us even when we can not.
I struggle not just with grief b/c of the miscarriage, but with other feelings of sadness, enviousness and jealousy. I see others who either have little babies or are pregnant and just sink b/c in my mind I want that back. I hear over the grocery store intercom the advertisement of items and how beneficial they are to a pregnant mother and helping her have a great pregnancy. I just wonder if those advertisers realize that not all mothers are in control of what happens while they are pregnant. I know it is the hardest thought a mother has after a miscarriage, "what did I do wrong to cause this"? Why do we always suspect we are at fault? Could it just be that God knows what we need and granted that for us without consulting us. Does God even have to get our approval when he decides to work out his will in our lives?
My biggest thing is that I want what I can not have. I want my baby, I want to feel my baby growing and kicking in side my belly. I want..I want... I want...
God says, "No or Not Now". "I have other plans for you my child", replies God. He knows the pain is great, but no matter what we feel we have lost, HE has lost more. He knows our sorrow and especially what it feels like to give up a child or a son. He has given more. Why b/c he truly loves us. He sacrifices for us b/c that is what true love does, it is sacrificial.
Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Jesus is the picture of true love. God is the best example of a sacrificing parent. Beautiful!
Why are we like that? Is is b/c we don't think about our needs, No. Is it b/c our families are so demanding we just have to get them off our backs by caring for them first, maybe. But could it be that we are just sacrificing our own needs briefly b/c we care so deeply and so much for our families. YES.
I dearly love everyone of my children completely and totally equally. I could not tell you which child is my favorite. I could not tell you which one I would miss more if they were not in my life. I could not tell you who loves me more b/c they all show me their love in there own individual way.
I also whole heartedly love my dh so much that I do not think I could withstand any trial or struggle with out him by my side. I have grown to love him so much more today than yesterday. Our relationship has really matured in the past 6-7 yrs than any other time. I know and believe it is all b/c of God.
It is b/c of God's love for us that we can even understand what true love is. Or even how to love the ones he has given us. Jesus in our example to be the best wives, mothers, helpmets and caregivers. He has shown us through his ministry how to teach those we care about. How to show how much we care, by putting others first. He has shown us how much we can recieve by giving of our selves, our time, and our hearts.
I know that God has a purpose for all of our lives. We quiet possibly do not know what that is. That is perfectly planned that way. God wants us to be surprised by how he plans to care, teach, love us through his word and actions of love toward us. (Also through faith and trust in HIM).
Sometimes it is hard to see or understand this. I even had a struggle with that myself. Especially when we feel he has treated us unjustly. I know that it is our human nature to look at the bad and feel sorry for ourselves. I know that sometimes a pity party seems enjoyable. Not so to God. It does not matter what we think we should have. He knows us better than we know ourselves, he knows what is best and sees what path is best for us even when we can not.
I struggle not just with grief b/c of the miscarriage, but with other feelings of sadness, enviousness and jealousy. I see others who either have little babies or are pregnant and just sink b/c in my mind I want that back. I hear over the grocery store intercom the advertisement of items and how beneficial they are to a pregnant mother and helping her have a great pregnancy. I just wonder if those advertisers realize that not all mothers are in control of what happens while they are pregnant. I know it is the hardest thought a mother has after a miscarriage, "what did I do wrong to cause this"? Why do we always suspect we are at fault? Could it just be that God knows what we need and granted that for us without consulting us. Does God even have to get our approval when he decides to work out his will in our lives?
My biggest thing is that I want what I can not have. I want my baby, I want to feel my baby growing and kicking in side my belly. I want..I want... I want...
God says, "No or Not Now". "I have other plans for you my child", replies God. He knows the pain is great, but no matter what we feel we have lost, HE has lost more. He knows our sorrow and especially what it feels like to give up a child or a son. He has given more. Why b/c he truly loves us. He sacrifices for us b/c that is what true love does, it is sacrificial.
Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Jesus is the picture of true love. God is the best example of a sacrificing parent. Beautiful!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Movie Reveiws.
Wanted to share some movies that we have recently seen or have enjoyed some time ago. All would be good for the whole family to watch.
The first movie is "Belle and the Beast". It is a Christian family feature and has many great points to it. I really enjoyed it. Although the budget was not really high and the acting was not "Hollywood" the plot is great and the actors did a good job.
This movie expresses the values of sacrificing and putting others first. Hardships have hit in both of lead characters lives. It is how each one dealt with those tragedies that shows the "Heart" of the movie. The question this movie sparks is, "Who do you lean on when you have a struggle or hardship?" The answer should be "God". If it is not, then the road to recovery or complete healing will take much longer and may not even come at all. Not a permanent solution if God is not in the equation.
Since this is a Christian romantic movie, it might be good to check out around Valentines Day.
The next movie is "City of Ember". Now this in not a Christian movie, but it has a family aspect that is nice. It is PG and has no real bad situations except just a mole like creature that chases the two main characters once and then gets to the not so good mayor in the end.
The main two characters are young teens who are trying to figure out why their underground city is having power problems. It is kind of a mystery as to how they find the answers to their many questions. Their are only two main "Hollywood" known actors; Bill Murry, and Tim Robinson. Most of the other actors have had small roles in other movies but may not be to well known. The relationship between the young boy and girl does not seem to be to intimate. They trust and rely on each other and help one another to find the answers they seek. They actually find out the truth and share it with the whole city.
I really liked the plot. To me it is what we should be doing as Christians. Assisting one another in finding the answers and sharing the truth of our findings with the whole world or our corner of it.
My final movie is "Fire Proof" starring Kirk Cameron. Many things have been said about this movie considering it's objective. I can see this movie not just relative to marital relationships but relationships in general. I loved the mentoring closeness between the actor who played Kirk Camerons father and Kirk Cameron's character. I thoroughly enjoyed this movie and so did my dh. Too be completely honest, we both cried about the gripping realistic relationship struggles and how we can personally relate to that in the movie.
Inside facets to why this movie was so great and has such an effect on the Christian and non-christian communities.
Kirk Cameron is the only well known actor in the movie. He actually did his contribution to the movie for Free.
The movie's budget was $500, 000. It grossed somewhere in the millions. That is with out DVD sales that will probably rise even higher.
There is a kissing scene between Kirk Cameron's character and the actress who plays his wife. Actually the kiss is not between Kirk Cameron and the actress who plays his wife, but between Kirk Cameron and his real wife, Chelsea Noble. Kirk Cameron has a conviction that he will not kiss or show any intimate affection to any women on screen since he is married and holds his commitment and vows sacred. So the movie worked around this in that the scene was shot in a shadow area and the view of the wife is not totally noticeable. Kirk Cameron's wife Chelsea was dressed like the actress for that one scene. She is probably a close resemblance to the actress who played the role of the wife.
Knowing that kind of makes the movie a little more special since the real "loving moment" of reconciliation in the movie is shared by a real married couple.
Hope you enjoy these movies. If you have any family movies you would like to suggest that would be wonderful.
The first movie is "Belle and the Beast". It is a Christian family feature and has many great points to it. I really enjoyed it. Although the budget was not really high and the acting was not "Hollywood" the plot is great and the actors did a good job.
This movie expresses the values of sacrificing and putting others first. Hardships have hit in both of lead characters lives. It is how each one dealt with those tragedies that shows the "Heart" of the movie. The question this movie sparks is, "Who do you lean on when you have a struggle or hardship?" The answer should be "God". If it is not, then the road to recovery or complete healing will take much longer and may not even come at all. Not a permanent solution if God is not in the equation.
Since this is a Christian romantic movie, it might be good to check out around Valentines Day.
The next movie is "City of Ember". Now this in not a Christian movie, but it has a family aspect that is nice. It is PG and has no real bad situations except just a mole like creature that chases the two main characters once and then gets to the not so good mayor in the end.
The main two characters are young teens who are trying to figure out why their underground city is having power problems. It is kind of a mystery as to how they find the answers to their many questions. Their are only two main "Hollywood" known actors; Bill Murry, and Tim Robinson. Most of the other actors have had small roles in other movies but may not be to well known. The relationship between the young boy and girl does not seem to be to intimate. They trust and rely on each other and help one another to find the answers they seek. They actually find out the truth and share it with the whole city.
I really liked the plot. To me it is what we should be doing as Christians. Assisting one another in finding the answers and sharing the truth of our findings with the whole world or our corner of it.
My final movie is "Fire Proof" starring Kirk Cameron. Many things have been said about this movie considering it's objective. I can see this movie not just relative to marital relationships but relationships in general. I loved the mentoring closeness between the actor who played Kirk Camerons father and Kirk Cameron's character. I thoroughly enjoyed this movie and so did my dh. Too be completely honest, we both cried about the gripping realistic relationship struggles and how we can personally relate to that in the movie.
Inside facets to why this movie was so great and has such an effect on the Christian and non-christian communities.
Kirk Cameron is the only well known actor in the movie. He actually did his contribution to the movie for Free.
The movie's budget was $500, 000. It grossed somewhere in the millions. That is with out DVD sales that will probably rise even higher.
There is a kissing scene between Kirk Cameron's character and the actress who plays his wife. Actually the kiss is not between Kirk Cameron and the actress who plays his wife, but between Kirk Cameron and his real wife, Chelsea Noble. Kirk Cameron has a conviction that he will not kiss or show any intimate affection to any women on screen since he is married and holds his commitment and vows sacred. So the movie worked around this in that the scene was shot in a shadow area and the view of the wife is not totally noticeable. Kirk Cameron's wife Chelsea was dressed like the actress for that one scene. She is probably a close resemblance to the actress who played the role of the wife.
Knowing that kind of makes the movie a little more special since the real "loving moment" of reconciliation in the movie is shared by a real married couple.
Hope you enjoy these movies. If you have any family movies you would like to suggest that would be wonderful.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Opening our Home and Hearts.
I have wanted to share this story for a while now, but just did not know how to. Well prayerfully I have given this over to God in hope that He will be glorified by everything shared.
I do not know about you, or how you look at your life or life's purpose. I look at my life and life's purpose is to Serve and Honor God. I am not perfect in how I do this. I pray and try to allow God to use me in any capacity that he chooses.
Here is my story and experience how God blessed me and my family and allowed us to be blessings too.
In April of 2008 a friend of mine asked me and my dh if we would consider sheltering her/their daughter. She explained to me certain circumstances and in prayerful consideration my dh and I agreed that God wanted us to allow him to use us in this way.
So Beth came to stay with us in late April. She was a quiet spirit who seemed to have lots of hidden areas of her heart. In just a short time I began to realize some of the issues that made her so guarded. For a great part of her short life she has had to face many different trials.
One of these was being rejected by so many people. Beth was adopted by my friend and dh and family when she was almost 10. Before then, she was shuffled to homes that were never a permanent solution.
Broken and in much need of unconditional love, and forgiveness Beth arrived to assist me in household chores and caring for my children. Little did I know how God had designed for her and her purpose in my life. Through many opportunities God gave me, I tried to encourage and build up her spirit and heart to trust and rely on God. I know God had his hand all over us and her while she was with us.
At the time Beth arrived and stayed with us, my youngest daughter (child) was 7 months old. Beth was in so much need of love and unconditional love. Something little babies are really good at. Beth responded so well to Jehosheba's love and need for her to love her back. I believe that was God's purpose in allowing those two to have a bond that helped both of them in their crucial development.
Through the short time Beth was with us we included her in our family. We treated her like one of our own children. Loved her as though she was from our flesh. Everyone showed Beth respect and love that I believe helped her to see how God looks at her. We realized early on that what Beth needed was not just love or unconditional love with hugs but affirmation in words. Beth needed to be praised, appreciated and reassured that she is a very precious gift from God. I spent a lot of one on one time with Beth. She was like my shadow, where I went she came along. She and I were able to share things in quiet conversation that allowed both of us healing in our hearts.
I realized that Beth is a beautiful young woman. A young woman God has many purposes for, and that God will continue to use in a mighty way. That God's purpose was not for me to be used and serve him and to be a blessing to Beth and her parents, but for Beth to be a blessing to me and my family.
When we were notified of Beth's departure it was bitter sweet. We knew God's timing was and is perfect. We were just so sadden to say "good bye". In the 5 short months Beth stayed with us we realized how much we loved her. Not b/c of anyone thing she did or gave, but b/c of who she was to us. It was difficult for me and my family to let her go, but we were letting her go into God's hands.
It was two weeks after Beth left that I concieved our little Ezekiel. In knowing God had blessed me to create a new life, I felt less sadened to Beth's departure. Little did I know that God was going to have his perfect will in my pregnancy. In a strange and sad way I feel the sadness even deeper b/c I don't have Beth to share this with. Even though Beth was only 15/16 years old, she had a listening heart that made her so easy to talk to, listen to and love.
I pray for Beth and her parents and family and God's will and hand be in all of their lives. I know God does not make mistakes. He had a purpose for allowing Beth and little Eziekiel in our lives. Unaware of what that purpose is/ was. I am very thankful to God for allowing us the opportunity to share in the joy of both of their lives.
I am resolved to this one simple thought. Whatever God allows to happen to me, or use me for His purpose, I will gladly be available. Even if it may not end the way I would like or with sorrow or sadness, I will gladly be available. No matter the journey or the outcome, God I am yours use me as you will.
A vessel ready to be used and poured out for HIS GLORY,
Crystal
I do not know about you, or how you look at your life or life's purpose. I look at my life and life's purpose is to Serve and Honor God. I am not perfect in how I do this. I pray and try to allow God to use me in any capacity that he chooses.
Here is my story and experience how God blessed me and my family and allowed us to be blessings too.
In April of 2008 a friend of mine asked me and my dh if we would consider sheltering her/their daughter. She explained to me certain circumstances and in prayerful consideration my dh and I agreed that God wanted us to allow him to use us in this way.
So Beth came to stay with us in late April. She was a quiet spirit who seemed to have lots of hidden areas of her heart. In just a short time I began to realize some of the issues that made her so guarded. For a great part of her short life she has had to face many different trials.
One of these was being rejected by so many people. Beth was adopted by my friend and dh and family when she was almost 10. Before then, she was shuffled to homes that were never a permanent solution.
Broken and in much need of unconditional love, and forgiveness Beth arrived to assist me in household chores and caring for my children. Little did I know how God had designed for her and her purpose in my life. Through many opportunities God gave me, I tried to encourage and build up her spirit and heart to trust and rely on God. I know God had his hand all over us and her while she was with us.
At the time Beth arrived and stayed with us, my youngest daughter (child) was 7 months old. Beth was in so much need of love and unconditional love. Something little babies are really good at. Beth responded so well to Jehosheba's love and need for her to love her back. I believe that was God's purpose in allowing those two to have a bond that helped both of them in their crucial development.
Through the short time Beth was with us we included her in our family. We treated her like one of our own children. Loved her as though she was from our flesh. Everyone showed Beth respect and love that I believe helped her to see how God looks at her. We realized early on that what Beth needed was not just love or unconditional love with hugs but affirmation in words. Beth needed to be praised, appreciated and reassured that she is a very precious gift from God. I spent a lot of one on one time with Beth. She was like my shadow, where I went she came along. She and I were able to share things in quiet conversation that allowed both of us healing in our hearts.
I realized that Beth is a beautiful young woman. A young woman God has many purposes for, and that God will continue to use in a mighty way. That God's purpose was not for me to be used and serve him and to be a blessing to Beth and her parents, but for Beth to be a blessing to me and my family.
When we were notified of Beth's departure it was bitter sweet. We knew God's timing was and is perfect. We were just so sadden to say "good bye". In the 5 short months Beth stayed with us we realized how much we loved her. Not b/c of anyone thing she did or gave, but b/c of who she was to us. It was difficult for me and my family to let her go, but we were letting her go into God's hands.
It was two weeks after Beth left that I concieved our little Ezekiel. In knowing God had blessed me to create a new life, I felt less sadened to Beth's departure. Little did I know that God was going to have his perfect will in my pregnancy. In a strange and sad way I feel the sadness even deeper b/c I don't have Beth to share this with. Even though Beth was only 15/16 years old, she had a listening heart that made her so easy to talk to, listen to and love.
I pray for Beth and her parents and family and God's will and hand be in all of their lives. I know God does not make mistakes. He had a purpose for allowing Beth and little Eziekiel in our lives. Unaware of what that purpose is/ was. I am very thankful to God for allowing us the opportunity to share in the joy of both of their lives.
I am resolved to this one simple thought. Whatever God allows to happen to me, or use me for His purpose, I will gladly be available. Even if it may not end the way I would like or with sorrow or sadness, I will gladly be available. No matter the journey or the outcome, God I am yours use me as you will.
A vessel ready to be used and poured out for HIS GLORY,
Crystal
Music is Healing.
I just wanted to share a couple songs that have really touched my heart and have helped my heart heal through this difficult time.
Something I have learned from this first song is that NO matter what we go through in life, our reaction should always be to "Praise the Lord". I know it is not usually one of our first reactions nor does it come easy. I think that usually praising God comes after so many other grief emotions. I am learning though as tough as our trials and struggles may be, God still loves us.
Praise you in the storm by Casting Crowns
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus
This next song has brought me so much comfort b/c it describes how we feel or our emotional reaction to life's unexpected trials and yet through all Jesus is holding us. Knowing that we are not alone and that our Savior has us firmly in his hands. The safest place to be in the hands of our Almighty God.
I really enjoy listening to the radio in the kitchen and all through out the house. I prefer Christian music b/c of the effect it has on my spirit and attitude. I specifically enjoy KLOVE. You can find a radio station just about anywhere you live. Or look on the web at their web site, Klove.com. They have a streaming audio that is really nice too.
Blessing for your healing. Remember true healing comes only from one source. God and Jesus who can heal all wounds.
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul.
He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me, your rod and staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD forever.
Amen
Something I have learned from this first song is that NO matter what we go through in life, our reaction should always be to "Praise the Lord". I know it is not usually one of our first reactions nor does it come easy. I think that usually praising God comes after so many other grief emotions. I am learning though as tough as our trials and struggles may be, God still loves us.
Praise you in the storm by Casting Crowns
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus
This next song has brought me so much comfort b/c it describes how we feel or our emotional reaction to life's unexpected trials and yet through all Jesus is holding us. Knowing that we are not alone and that our Savior has us firmly in his hands. The safest place to be in the hands of our Almighty God.
I really enjoy listening to the radio in the kitchen and all through out the house. I prefer Christian music b/c of the effect it has on my spirit and attitude. I specifically enjoy KLOVE. You can find a radio station just about anywhere you live. Or look on the web at their web site, Klove.com. They have a streaming audio that is really nice too.
Blessing for your healing. Remember true healing comes only from one source. God and Jesus who can heal all wounds.
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul.
He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me, your rod and staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD forever.
Amen
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Faith is....
Lately I have been really leaning on my faith and trust in my Almighty God and Father. I wanted to share what Faith to me is. Then also follow up with what the Bible says about Faith.
Faith to me is many things. As a child faith can be real simple. Children by nature are really trusting. That is until they feel uncertain or let down by their trust in something or someone. I believe our Faith matures and we grow in Faith towards God and Jesus due to our situations, trials and struggles we face.
By God's design Faith is suppose to increase and lead us to a stronger more developed relationship with HIM. Often though situations, trials and struggles may do the opposite. I have known and seen how trials and struggles have lead people away from God and decreased their Faith. More often they have allowed their Faith to be stolen or lost among the troubles of this life.
Sadly this is a common response to the trials we face. Instead of building up our Faith the trials tear our faith and families apart. We allow our trials to become bigger than our God. Especially in today's uncertain economic crisis we focus on our problems or solutions to our problems than focusing on our God who by Faith in HIM gives us all the hope we need in dealing with our problems.
I personally believe that our struggles are meant to get us off of our selves and problems and on the only one solution to them, God. I know that our human minds believe that we are in control of our lives. Not so. In fact, that thought could not be any further from the truth. What needs to be our reaction, or my reaction to my latest trial? It is to raise my head, raise my hands focus on God and praise and Thank him for his ever constant care and watchfulness.
God is so wonderful. In our sorrow we need to recognize how his merciful hand reaches down toward us and protects us in many ways we can not see. I am trying to focus on God and not on my own sadness. Something I have to remember is, that in my sadness God is here with me.
Faith is :
Believing with out seeing.
Hopeful.
Trusting in God.
Not having all the answers, but believing God is more than able.
Knowing the one who gives Peace eternal.
Not fearful.
Calming.
Everything pertaining to Eternal Life.
Here are just a few scriptures to encourage your Faith in Jesus.
HABAKKUK 2:4
See, he is puffed up; his desires are not upright- but the righteous will live by his faith.
MATHEW 9:22
Jesus turned and saw her, "Take heart, daughter," he said " your faith has healed you." And the woman was healed from that moment.
MATHEW 17:20
He replied, " Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard see, you can say to this mountain, Move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
2 CORINTHIANS 1:24b
because it is by faith you stand firm.
2 CORINTHIANS 5:7
We live by faith, not by sight.
GALATIANS 3:11
Clearly no one is justified before God by the law, b/c "The righteous will live by faith."
HEBREWS 10:38
But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him.
HEBREWS 11:1 (The whole chapter is great)
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
HEBREWS 11:6
And without faith it is impossible to please God, b/c anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that be rewards those who earnestly seek him.
2 TIMOTHY 4;7
I have fought the goon fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
JAMES 2:26
As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.
May be you have a favorite Faith verse. I would love to hear it. May be you could share that verse with someone who you know is struggling with a difficult problem. What they need is Faith in God and not in themselves that will provide them with eternal peace. See that it is eternal peace, not an instant peace. Through time and Faith peace can come instantly. All due to our Faith and walk with Jesus.
Faith to me is many things. As a child faith can be real simple. Children by nature are really trusting. That is until they feel uncertain or let down by their trust in something or someone. I believe our Faith matures and we grow in Faith towards God and Jesus due to our situations, trials and struggles we face.
By God's design Faith is suppose to increase and lead us to a stronger more developed relationship with HIM. Often though situations, trials and struggles may do the opposite. I have known and seen how trials and struggles have lead people away from God and decreased their Faith. More often they have allowed their Faith to be stolen or lost among the troubles of this life.
Sadly this is a common response to the trials we face. Instead of building up our Faith the trials tear our faith and families apart. We allow our trials to become bigger than our God. Especially in today's uncertain economic crisis we focus on our problems or solutions to our problems than focusing on our God who by Faith in HIM gives us all the hope we need in dealing with our problems.
I personally believe that our struggles are meant to get us off of our selves and problems and on the only one solution to them, God. I know that our human minds believe that we are in control of our lives. Not so. In fact, that thought could not be any further from the truth. What needs to be our reaction, or my reaction to my latest trial? It is to raise my head, raise my hands focus on God and praise and Thank him for his ever constant care and watchfulness.
God is so wonderful. In our sorrow we need to recognize how his merciful hand reaches down toward us and protects us in many ways we can not see. I am trying to focus on God and not on my own sadness. Something I have to remember is, that in my sadness God is here with me.
Faith is :
Believing with out seeing.
Hopeful.
Trusting in God.
Not having all the answers, but believing God is more than able.
Knowing the one who gives Peace eternal.
Not fearful.
Calming.
Everything pertaining to Eternal Life.
Here are just a few scriptures to encourage your Faith in Jesus.
HABAKKUK 2:4
See, he is puffed up; his desires are not upright- but the righteous will live by his faith.
MATHEW 9:22
Jesus turned and saw her, "Take heart, daughter," he said " your faith has healed you." And the woman was healed from that moment.
MATHEW 17:20
He replied, " Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard see, you can say to this mountain, Move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
2 CORINTHIANS 1:24b
because it is by faith you stand firm.
2 CORINTHIANS 5:7
We live by faith, not by sight.
GALATIANS 3:11
Clearly no one is justified before God by the law, b/c "The righteous will live by faith."
HEBREWS 10:38
But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him.
HEBREWS 11:1 (The whole chapter is great)
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
HEBREWS 11:6
And without faith it is impossible to please God, b/c anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that be rewards those who earnestly seek him.
2 TIMOTHY 4;7
I have fought the goon fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
JAMES 2:26
As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.
May be you have a favorite Faith verse. I would love to hear it. May be you could share that verse with someone who you know is struggling with a difficult problem. What they need is Faith in God and not in themselves that will provide them with eternal peace. See that it is eternal peace, not an instant peace. Through time and Faith peace can come instantly. All due to our Faith and walk with Jesus.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Faith does not come easy.
By the sound of my last few posts it may seem that Faith comes easy. It may seem like I am a spiritual wonder woman, but I'm not. I actually get frustrated with the situations God allows to happen in my life. Maybe from a glance it seems like I haven't had any struggles that test my faith. I have had some tough ones in the past 2-3 yrs that have really challenged my faith and convictions.
In January of 2006 my extended family, parents and siblings went on vacation to Las Vegas. I was not interested in going. My sister's boyfriends son was deathly ill and neither of them went either. While on the vacation my brother and father get into a fist fight which neither of them exhibited self control. Upon arriving home my mother decides to leave my father and seek a divorce after 38 yrs of marriage.
While my parents embark on a messy drawn out divorce my sister's boyfriends son has a "miraculous" recovery from a blood infection and pneumonia. My children prayed continually for him and were able to see their prayers were answered. Awesome!
Last year my father met a women on the internet and married her in two months. Even though he claims to be a christian and knows what the Bible says about divorce and remarriage. That was in August of 08'.
My mom also met a man on the internet and notified me of their impending marriage in May of 09'. Believing that she is still pleasing God in her actions, even though she sought the divorce and was planning and improving her looks for a possible re-marriage.
No matter what I say in encouragement of showing them what the Bible says and the importance of obeying God even when situations do not make us Happy.
My convictions are strong in obeying what the Bible instructs. I know that our happiness is not predicated on what happens to us, rather the state of our Hearts and how we handle what God allows to happen to us.
Our struggles as Believers do not set us apart from others or non believers. What sets us apart is how we look at God and how we see how much LOVE he has for us.
Even Jesus understood that his Father's will was Best. While in the garden Jesus prays that his Father's will be done over his own.
Mathew 26 : 39
Going in a little further, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father. if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will."
In January of 2006 my extended family, parents and siblings went on vacation to Las Vegas. I was not interested in going. My sister's boyfriends son was deathly ill and neither of them went either. While on the vacation my brother and father get into a fist fight which neither of them exhibited self control. Upon arriving home my mother decides to leave my father and seek a divorce after 38 yrs of marriage.
While my parents embark on a messy drawn out divorce my sister's boyfriends son has a "miraculous" recovery from a blood infection and pneumonia. My children prayed continually for him and were able to see their prayers were answered. Awesome!
Last year my father met a women on the internet and married her in two months. Even though he claims to be a christian and knows what the Bible says about divorce and remarriage. That was in August of 08'.
My mom also met a man on the internet and notified me of their impending marriage in May of 09'. Believing that she is still pleasing God in her actions, even though she sought the divorce and was planning and improving her looks for a possible re-marriage.
No matter what I say in encouragement of showing them what the Bible says and the importance of obeying God even when situations do not make us Happy.
My convictions are strong in obeying what the Bible instructs. I know that our happiness is not predicated on what happens to us, rather the state of our Hearts and how we handle what God allows to happen to us.
Our struggles as Believers do not set us apart from others or non believers. What sets us apart is how we look at God and how we see how much LOVE he has for us.
Even Jesus understood that his Father's will was Best. While in the garden Jesus prays that his Father's will be done over his own.
Mathew 26 : 39
Going in a little further, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father. if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will."
Friday, January 23, 2009
Trusting in God's plan.
Sometimes it is so difficult to understand why or how or what reasons God has for allowing challenges to occur in our lives. It is the human mind that questions reasons we could not even possibly comprehend. I am so glad I do not have the burden of making those decisions for everyone in the world.
Trying to understand the trials and struggles we face can sometimes only lead to more questions. That is unless we look at those trials and struggles the way the Bible shows us.
In James (one of my favorite books in the Bible), it says;
James 1:2-4
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
There is a miracle that Jesus performs b/c of the disciples inquiry. There was a man who was blind from birth. The disciples asked Jesus for what reason was he born that way or basically "who sinned" him or his parents. Jesus answered them "No one has sinned" but rather he was born blind so that the power of God may be manifested in and through him.
I believe this is an answer many of us can accept. God allows many trials to happen to us or in our lives and it is b/c he wants the Glory. We need to put our focus off of our trials and onto him. I know how hard that is and in the midst of all the questions I can still trust in what he has planned for me.
A week ago I was having some painful contractions which lead to my son's early birth/ miscarriage. I had called my dh home from work so he could be with me and I could lean on him. Before he arrived home I found myself in the bathroom realizing that this was going to happen God's way. I knew at that moment whatever happened, I was not going to falter in my faith. I told God that "He is my God and will always be my God". No wavering. Though I may not know where this path leads, I can trust in my Shepherd who will guide the way.
Putting our trust completely in him, means we have to accept we are not in control. Just like that old hymm "Trust and Obey" ; "Trust and Obey for there is NO other way to be happy in Jesus, then to Trust and Obey. Can I be happy in trusting God in everything and in every detail of my life, Yes!
Trying to understand the trials and struggles we face can sometimes only lead to more questions. That is unless we look at those trials and struggles the way the Bible shows us.
In James (one of my favorite books in the Bible), it says;
James 1:2-4
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
There is a miracle that Jesus performs b/c of the disciples inquiry. There was a man who was blind from birth. The disciples asked Jesus for what reason was he born that way or basically "who sinned" him or his parents. Jesus answered them "No one has sinned" but rather he was born blind so that the power of God may be manifested in and through him.
I believe this is an answer many of us can accept. God allows many trials to happen to us or in our lives and it is b/c he wants the Glory. We need to put our focus off of our trials and onto him. I know how hard that is and in the midst of all the questions I can still trust in what he has planned for me.
A week ago I was having some painful contractions which lead to my son's early birth/ miscarriage. I had called my dh home from work so he could be with me and I could lean on him. Before he arrived home I found myself in the bathroom realizing that this was going to happen God's way. I knew at that moment whatever happened, I was not going to falter in my faith. I told God that "He is my God and will always be my God". No wavering. Though I may not know where this path leads, I can trust in my Shepherd who will guide the way.
Putting our trust completely in him, means we have to accept we are not in control. Just like that old hymm "Trust and Obey" ; "Trust and Obey for there is NO other way to be happy in Jesus, then to Trust and Obey. Can I be happy in trusting God in everything and in every detail of my life, Yes!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Comfort in the Healing Process.
Yesterday January 21, was a tough day emotionally. I seemed to have more moments of sadness. More tears falling in disappointment. I felt very overwhelmed with my emotions. Yet in the same day I was comforted the most since all this has happened.
Unknowingly an arrangement of flowers arrived and my husband notified me of their presence when he arrived home from work. I looked at the card and just could not contain the tears as they fell from my eyes. Some friends of ours had experienced a similar miscarriage 4 months before us. They were the thoughtful and concerned givers. My heart was so touched by their compassion that I just felt overwhelmed with love and concern.
Also in the same day some other friends who live 35-40 miles away came to town and brought over dinner, a little heartfelt and heartwarming gift and card. Not even aware of their intentions except for visiting. What a blessing it was to see the love and compassion from these dear friends.
It is hard to deal with disappointment. Even harder to feel completely and utterly alone. I am so thankful b/c I have loving christian brothers and sisters who are making my disappointment easier to handle. I am also even more thankful for my dear husband who has been so loving and understanding. He has tried to encourage me with helpful words and thoughts; thoughts that are made to make me smile.
Tonight was no different. My 5 yr old son was going potty after bible time and when everyone else was already asleep. He began having a conversation while in the bathroom. (Before he went to the potty, He overheard me sitting in a chair in his room, crying and praying to God.) He seemed to be really sharing his heart to God. I heard the last phrase or so and asked him what he was saying to God. I was so astounded about his answer. " I was praying to God to give us more babies. I want 4 more brothers and sisters." I asked him if he was sad about little Ezekiel Moses dieing. He said "Yes". I said "that is okay God will help us heal I said." I then took the time to pray with him and encourage him to Trust and believe God. I told him nothing was impossible with God.
I am so thankful to God for seeing me through this difficult time and for giving me our son Othniel. He has been a blessing and has facilitated the healing that God started even. My heart is mending b/c little Othniel has joy and hope and peace in his life. Trying to find the joy and peace in everything. Even and especially in the simple things.
There is a phrase that says, "Joy comes in the morning". I think however it can be thought of that "Joy can come in the mourning." Looking for positive uplifting things can help the mourning process be less bitter and more of a blessing.
I know that God does not promise us a life with out trials or struggles. However he does promise us that HE will not leave us during those times. He is constant and ever present even and especially when we are suffering a disappointment or loss.
I am Thankful for a God that never lets go. I am also Thankful to MY God who has plans for me that I can not see but knows that they are better plans for me than the ones I have for myself. One of my favorite verses is:
Jeremiah 29 :11 For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord; plans for welfare not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.
I know it seems hard to Praise God in the midst of the storm, but the storm does pass and then comes the Rainbow. I am waiting for the Rainbow.
Unknowingly an arrangement of flowers arrived and my husband notified me of their presence when he arrived home from work. I looked at the card and just could not contain the tears as they fell from my eyes. Some friends of ours had experienced a similar miscarriage 4 months before us. They were the thoughtful and concerned givers. My heart was so touched by their compassion that I just felt overwhelmed with love and concern.
Also in the same day some other friends who live 35-40 miles away came to town and brought over dinner, a little heartfelt and heartwarming gift and card. Not even aware of their intentions except for visiting. What a blessing it was to see the love and compassion from these dear friends.
It is hard to deal with disappointment. Even harder to feel completely and utterly alone. I am so thankful b/c I have loving christian brothers and sisters who are making my disappointment easier to handle. I am also even more thankful for my dear husband who has been so loving and understanding. He has tried to encourage me with helpful words and thoughts; thoughts that are made to make me smile.
Tonight was no different. My 5 yr old son was going potty after bible time and when everyone else was already asleep. He began having a conversation while in the bathroom. (Before he went to the potty, He overheard me sitting in a chair in his room, crying and praying to God.) He seemed to be really sharing his heart to God. I heard the last phrase or so and asked him what he was saying to God. I was so astounded about his answer. " I was praying to God to give us more babies. I want 4 more brothers and sisters." I asked him if he was sad about little Ezekiel Moses dieing. He said "Yes". I said "that is okay God will help us heal I said." I then took the time to pray with him and encourage him to Trust and believe God. I told him nothing was impossible with God.
I am so thankful to God for seeing me through this difficult time and for giving me our son Othniel. He has been a blessing and has facilitated the healing that God started even. My heart is mending b/c little Othniel has joy and hope and peace in his life. Trying to find the joy and peace in everything. Even and especially in the simple things.
There is a phrase that says, "Joy comes in the morning". I think however it can be thought of that "Joy can come in the mourning." Looking for positive uplifting things can help the mourning process be less bitter and more of a blessing.
I know that God does not promise us a life with out trials or struggles. However he does promise us that HE will not leave us during those times. He is constant and ever present even and especially when we are suffering a disappointment or loss.
I am Thankful for a God that never lets go. I am also Thankful to MY God who has plans for me that I can not see but knows that they are better plans for me than the ones I have for myself. One of my favorite verses is:
Jeremiah 29 :11 For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord; plans for welfare not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.
I know it seems hard to Praise God in the midst of the storm, but the storm does pass and then comes the Rainbow. I am waiting for the Rainbow.
Monday, January 19, 2009
God giveth and God taketh away.
I am sad to share the news of my first miscarriage.
On Friday January 16th I labored for 3+ hrs and birth a very little baby in cased in the sack of amniotic fluid. I was only 18 wks pregnant and or little baby a son was only 14 wks. My husband was by my side the entire time. We were both saddened but comforted through our faith in our Almighty God.
I am physically feeling remarkably well. Physically I am not bleeding much. Sharing the details with my midwife gave me a great deal more peace. Confirming that everything seemed to have passed well. I usually home birth and so she felt confident that I was physically handling everything as normally as one can in this situation.
My faith has been strengthened so much. I know and believe that God has a purpose and plan for my life. I can accept his perfect will for me. I trust in him completely. I rest in his peace and promise of eternity. Knowing that one day I may met and hold my little son.
What is hard to handle is that we waited until Christmas to share our pregnancy news. When we were over the first trimester.(I haven't known but one other women who has had a miscarriage late like mine.) Telling everyone the news was both sad yet comforting since it helps to share the grief. But looking at my other 6 beautiful children and wondering how he would have fit in. Missing the moments I was so much looking forward to. Finally being able to look forward to having an early summer baby opposed to my last 5 being late fall or winter babies. Looking forward to my littlest girl being a big sister and my youngest son having a little brother. Not that it may not happen still in the future, but just not with our "little Zek."
We decided to name him Ezekiel, reminiscent to the Valley of the Dry Bones and how Ezekiel answered God. We read that story that night for our devotional and felt it was just the perfect fit. God asks Ezekiel " son of man, can these bones live?" Ezekiel replies, " O Sovereign Lord, you alone know." God told Ezekiel to prophesy to the bones and say, " Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! The Sovereign Lord says: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know I am the LORD." Ezekiel 37 : 3 - 6.
Ezekiel means, Strength of God, God is strong, whom God will strengthen. Moses means, drawn forth, brought up from the waters or a son. So Ezekiel Moses means, whom God will strengthen, drawn forth, a son.
Being blessed not having this experience before, made me feel slightly immune to the possibility. Now my experience has really opened my eyes and heart to the sensitivity of what so many women deal with. Without the Lord God and his ever flowing peace and love I couldn't possibly find my strength. God has been my strength and my dh has been like an anchor for me to lean on and pull me closer to God. Strangely though, I feel blessed throughout everything.
Your prayers and concerns are so greatly appreciated. The family of God is so amazing and how God uses others to facilitate the precious healing HE gives through is love and peace.
Thank you so much in advance for your kind thoughts and comments.
Lovingly,
Crystal mom to 6 and one waiting in glory.
On Friday January 16th I labored for 3+ hrs and birth a very little baby in cased in the sack of amniotic fluid. I was only 18 wks pregnant and or little baby a son was only 14 wks. My husband was by my side the entire time. We were both saddened but comforted through our faith in our Almighty God.
I am physically feeling remarkably well. Physically I am not bleeding much. Sharing the details with my midwife gave me a great deal more peace. Confirming that everything seemed to have passed well. I usually home birth and so she felt confident that I was physically handling everything as normally as one can in this situation.
My faith has been strengthened so much. I know and believe that God has a purpose and plan for my life. I can accept his perfect will for me. I trust in him completely. I rest in his peace and promise of eternity. Knowing that one day I may met and hold my little son.
What is hard to handle is that we waited until Christmas to share our pregnancy news. When we were over the first trimester.(I haven't known but one other women who has had a miscarriage late like mine.) Telling everyone the news was both sad yet comforting since it helps to share the grief. But looking at my other 6 beautiful children and wondering how he would have fit in. Missing the moments I was so much looking forward to. Finally being able to look forward to having an early summer baby opposed to my last 5 being late fall or winter babies. Looking forward to my littlest girl being a big sister and my youngest son having a little brother. Not that it may not happen still in the future, but just not with our "little Zek."
We decided to name him Ezekiel, reminiscent to the Valley of the Dry Bones and how Ezekiel answered God. We read that story that night for our devotional and felt it was just the perfect fit. God asks Ezekiel " son of man, can these bones live?" Ezekiel replies, " O Sovereign Lord, you alone know." God told Ezekiel to prophesy to the bones and say, " Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! The Sovereign Lord says: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know I am the LORD." Ezekiel 37 : 3 - 6.
Ezekiel means, Strength of God, God is strong, whom God will strengthen. Moses means, drawn forth, brought up from the waters or a son. So Ezekiel Moses means, whom God will strengthen, drawn forth, a son.
Being blessed not having this experience before, made me feel slightly immune to the possibility. Now my experience has really opened my eyes and heart to the sensitivity of what so many women deal with. Without the Lord God and his ever flowing peace and love I couldn't possibly find my strength. God has been my strength and my dh has been like an anchor for me to lean on and pull me closer to God. Strangely though, I feel blessed throughout everything.
Your prayers and concerns are so greatly appreciated. The family of God is so amazing and how God uses others to facilitate the precious healing HE gives through is love and peace.
Thank you so much in advance for your kind thoughts and comments.
Lovingly,
Crystal mom to 6 and one waiting in glory.
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